Free!

Finally I am free! The house is gone, all the debts cleared and a new life awaits me.

I am now WELL over a month without the dreaded weed and despite a few near misses during the runup to completion of the house sale, I have stayed the course. I still wake up each morning and repeat to myself that I am a non smoker. but the ritual is shorter each day. Just a momentary reflective thought to recognise what I have achieved so far.

I am off to a quiz night at the pub tonight. I know I shan't succumb, as I have been a couple of times. I doubt I shall have much to drink, it is more a social thing, getting out, meeting new people, having a laugh (especially at myself when I get an easy question wrong!)

A most heinous crime

I swear to God that I really do want a cigarette, but refuse to have one, therefore it is highly unlikely that I will post tomorrow, as it is possible that I will be in Police custody!

It should be fun explaining to the duty solicitor that I went "shark hunting" and disposed of one of his kind, as I snarl at him through gritted teeth!

I will claim grounds of diminished responsibility and outright provocation when I enter my plea of "Not Guilty"

Do all solicitors think that the rest of humankind is mentally subnormal? Do they think that using a buffer of 20 bouffante haired bimbos is going to keep us away from them? And do these 20 bimbos not use a diary? If they don't, then I will quite happily teach them how to use Outlook 97 for a mere £120 per person per hour (+VAT) , so that they can blooming learn to input their dumb bosses holiday dates into it! I phoned up 8 times today to find out when the contracts would be exchanged and I could finally escape the hell that is Accrington. Responses were as follows

• He on another call x 3
• He is on his lunch x 1
• He has just gone out x 2
• He is with a client x 2

It was after the second "He is with a client" that anger got the better of me, or should I say STRESS, and I blurted out, "and this client is getting hissed off with being fobbed off"

I seriously felt like adding "and if he doesn't talk to me very soon, the next time he sees his office, it will be as a viewer of Crimewatch.", but managed to restrain myself, knowing that threatening behaviour was not likely to help my cause any.

It was surprising how quickly he did get back to me, only to inform me that his opposite in the other law firm had gone on holiday for two weeks. I asked him when it had been that he knew about this, and he casually said yesterday. I am surprised I managed to stay calm at this point, and my sarcastic comments will hardly likely to make the Book of Quotations, but I think I conveyed my dissatisfaction adequately.

I have given him to tomorrow to have the contracts exchanged and the money in my account, why am I not holding my breath?

Time to move on

I have been so busy with the final preparations for moving out, that I haven't had a chance to think about posting to my blog, let alone think about smoking! Yes, I have managed the first two weeks, and I am ready for a new adventure.

With a bit of luck, well not so much luck, more like bullying, I shall be homeless by the end of today. My house willl have been sold and I will be making some not insignificant steps back into the real world!

The medical experts haven't been wrong one iota in explaining how giving up would affect me,and that has made it easier to bear each phase. However, not one of them has mentioned this dream phenomenon that I keep experiencing or mentioning. I have never really remembered my dreams before, and they have certainly never been so vivid . The variety of topics is astounding, and whilst some of them are of far too adult a nature to be placed in a blog (I'm not a prude, but there are limits to what one wants the rest of the world to know!), there does seem to be a theme developing,

I didn't think I would find anything in the various dream dictionaries on the particular subject that seems to have taken up residence in my subconscious, but I am glad to have been proven wrong yet again, and once again pay homage to the milions of people that contribute to the internet.

I know that you are dying to find out what my brain has been engaging in whilst I sleep, so here you go:

Leather
To see leather in your dream, signifies successful business and favorable engagements with the opposite sex or your significant other. You will experience much happiness and find faithfulness in love.

source: dream moods

We shall see!

I worked in the distribution of shoes for 8 years, and was lucky enough in the course of business to visit some of the factories making some of the finest footwear that there is to offer. However, I never considered myself to have either a leather fetish or a footwear fetish, suffice it to say that if you re-arrange these words, "boots, thigh, leather, patent, length", you'll have a fair idea what has seemingly held my mind these past few days!

Motorcycle leathers are also playing a part in my dreams, I suspect that much of this has to do with my desire to tame a motorbike, though what else to tame, I will leave to your imagination too!

I am dying to find out what I'll be dreaming about once I am finally on the back of a bike!